Monday, July 20, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Am I the only one who worries about these things?
Musing. Thinking. About personalities and characters.
College is coming up so soon, and to be completely honest, I feel like I have to pick a persona. You know? Who I actually want people to see me as. Well.
The logical (and probably right) part of me says: "That's what college is for! Learning who you are! You don't have to have it figured out before you show up. You're thinking too much! Again!"
The.. uh.. illogical? right brained? Well, whatever you want to call it side of me is thinking "Do I want to be the ever elusive mystery? Do I want to be open, honest, and transparent? Do I want to be affable and friendly? Do I want to be part of every club, organization, and committee?"
Well. This is hard.
But is it important? Or completely unimportant?
I've always sort of felt like if you change the way people see you, you've lost some kind of credibility with people. They may or may not feel like you're being false, when you present an idea that seems out of character, start being more honest, or start dressing differently.
I guess that is what is prompting me to try and decide now. So that I don't "lose" the "credibility" (in my mind). So that I can be set, and I don't have to change later. But shouldn't I want to change? Shouldn't I be striving to be better, and to know God and myself better?
Yep.
We can be whoever we want. These people don't know us (mostly). We can start all over.
Is that the beauty of college? Or the down fall?
Do we try to be something we're not? or something we are, we were just too afraid to show before? Am I the only one who worries about these things?
College is coming up so soon, and to be completely honest, I feel like I have to pick a persona. You know? Who I actually want people to see me as. Well.
The logical (and probably right) part of me says: "That's what college is for! Learning who you are! You don't have to have it figured out before you show up. You're thinking too much! Again!"
The.. uh.. illogical? right brained? Well, whatever you want to call it side of me is thinking "Do I want to be the ever elusive mystery? Do I want to be open, honest, and transparent? Do I want to be affable and friendly? Do I want to be part of every club, organization, and committee?"
Well. This is hard.
But is it important? Or completely unimportant?
I've always sort of felt like if you change the way people see you, you've lost some kind of credibility with people. They may or may not feel like you're being false, when you present an idea that seems out of character, start being more honest, or start dressing differently.
I guess that is what is prompting me to try and decide now. So that I don't "lose" the "credibility" (in my mind). So that I can be set, and I don't have to change later. But shouldn't I want to change? Shouldn't I be striving to be better, and to know God and myself better?
Yep.
We can be whoever we want. These people don't know us (mostly). We can start all over.
Is that the beauty of college? Or the down fall?
Do we try to be something we're not? or something we are, we were just too afraid to show before? Am I the only one who worries about these things?
Offering
Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord, all I am is Yours
My whole life I place in Your hands
God of Mercy, humbled I bow down
In Your presence at Your throne
Cause I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue
And I want to be where You are
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord, all I am is Yours
My whole life I place in Your hands
God of Mercy, humbled I bow down
In Your presence at Your throne
Cause I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue
And I want to be where You are
Thursday, July 16, 2009
But heck, let's make another one
I was thinking...
How hard would it be to start a magazine?
Cause things like that just don't get popular overnight.
Plus the internet is taking everything over anyways.
Here's my thought. I wanted to write for a Christian music magazine, but I didn't see one that particularly caught my eye that I would want to write for. So, could I make one? I'm not very good at being in charge of things. I would probably have to get someone to do that for me. But to have a job like Mike Shea--AP magazine. It seems like he does a lot of interviewing for their podcasts and going to shows. I'm not sure what the heck else he does but it's probably important and boring. For the record, I haven't actually read their magazine. They never seem to have a band that I like on the cover, so I don't buy it.
Anyways, so. Let's make a magazine of smart, awesome, Christian bands. There might be one already, but heck, let's make another one. Like there aren't already a thousand Cosmopolitans.
How hard would it be to start a magazine?
Cause things like that just don't get popular overnight.
Plus the internet is taking everything over anyways.
Here's my thought. I wanted to write for a Christian music magazine, but I didn't see one that particularly caught my eye that I would want to write for. So, could I make one? I'm not very good at being in charge of things. I would probably have to get someone to do that for me. But to have a job like Mike Shea--AP magazine. It seems like he does a lot of interviewing for their podcasts and going to shows. I'm not sure what the heck else he does but it's probably important and boring. For the record, I haven't actually read their magazine. They never seem to have a band that I like on the cover, so I don't buy it.
Anyways, so. Let's make a magazine of smart, awesome, Christian bands. There might be one already, but heck, let's make another one. Like there aren't already a thousand Cosmopolitans.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
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